A Death in Heaven !

An angel took me to a ride to heaven.. the journey seemed to be long but I never realized that the time is running so fast. The place was full of love and happiness. I didn't realize the importance of this life I am blessed with. My angel with whom, I fell in love, gave me the reason to live. She was so beautiful that my eyes couldn't got off her, they never even blinked ! When she held me with her soft smooth hands, I feared that my roughness would ruin her lovely touch. Her spoken words composed a melodious song. She was perfect. Even I was, but at being imperfect !
For a year, I lived this beautiful life with her having no clue of what is going to happen in the future. The fate was f**king painful. One day suddenly, she left me without even telling. Blinded by the extraordinary lights, lost in the celebrations, I didn't realize that she is gone. When my eyes opened, they were filled with huge drops of tears, crying day and night. Lying at a place, struggling to live with a hope that she will come back one day. Unfortunately she didn't come back and the vessel of my hopes broke into countless pieces which still lie in my way and pierce me at every step I move. I still don't know what has been the reason for leaving. What hurts even more is the question that did she ever love me ? The instant I felt that I've lost the love of my life, I died to a death way too faster than cyanide can lead to. A life in a year and a death in a moment, thats all she gave me. I don't know if to thank her for giving me that memorable year or curse her for leaving me alone for the rest of my life.
People say its heaven which you arrive in after you are dead....but I claim I have seen heaven before death !

Guilty !

Today we were supposed to gather for a lunch buffet @ "Not just Jazz, By the bay", a treat by PSR on his b'day. The place is close to my office and since PSR didn't attend the intern, I had the responsibility of getting the tables booked for all of us in such a busy restaurant. We usually take an hour and a half or so to have our lunch cuz we kinda enjoy exploring new places which serve good food. I planned to leave the office by 1 P.M. but my "I can't say NO" attitude made be do so around 12 P.M. on the host's humble request :P
Now the question arises, what would i say to my mentor for leaving so early for the lunch and staying there for more than 3-4 hours. However I am good at handling these kind of situation but this time I seriously didn't have any idea what to do !! Finally Aarathi cracked one. Though it was tough to tell my mentor that its my B'day today !! I planned it well and unfortunately I didn't realize that what I was wearing was "Dhin Chaak"and not formals which made him strongly believe that its my B'day! :D I told him its my b'day today and I am giving a treat to my friends at a nearby place and thats why i need to reach early and it will take "a bit long" today to have my lunch. I doubt he would be thinking as if we take optimum time generally ! He joyfully wished me. Followed by this, to be in a better position, I added that I'll be working late around 7 just to compensate today's loss :D. He being very nice to me, allowed me to go and have fun !
I seriously am guilty of lying to him. I am misusing his cool nature and it made me so very uncomfortable. Though it took me a long time to finally execute this idea cuz i didn't want to lie. Sorry sir !! and ya one more thing.....the tr8 was awesumly awesum !!

First day of internship !

I woke up at 7 in the morning as I didn't want to be late on the very first day of my internship, got ready. I dressed formally and saw a corporate in the mirror :P The car (air conditioned :D) came to pick me up at sharp 8 and we all left. Just to get more feel, I started reading news paper in the car that too 'MINT' which is all related to finance and market stuffs. All ran over my head but I crammed some points so that I atleast speak in front of my mentor. Stepped into the office with a lot of confidence. The entire office was occupied with middle aged people who all seemed to be troubled with their life. I, based on this, pictured my mentor to be very strict and !@#ripper. But I was absolutely wrong !!! The guy is infinitely kewl and peace :)
He took us to a sound proof room with 6 chairs surrounding a round table for having an introductory session. I managed to speak some crap that I crammed from the news paper in order to impress him and bingo !! I succeeded to some extent and my imagination of being a corporate turned into reality :P :P
He showed me the way to my cabin which was well furnished and equipped with an Intel pentium processor :P (PJ i kno) . He gave me some previous internship reports to study and expected a topic of my choice for the intern. Holy shit ! I didn't know that !!
The entire day Aarathi and I were chatting and for this we are getting a stipend of Rs. 15000 !! Aailaaa! We went to Leopold cafe which is out of my league and as usual Aarathi had to pay for my bill. Deja vu :P . Thats it ! you are not gonna pay for me anymore and I promise you a grand tr8 at a place of your choice.
At last, with all my gratitude I would like to thank Aarathi for appreciating my talent:D and providing me this great opportunity of working with one of the India's finest Finance companies.
I was starving for an intern, gave up a long time ago and in the end, it was you who put a full stop to my endeavor. Thanx a ton !!

Companionless !

One who is born on earth has to die one day. The same applies with our cruel place, the one who comes has to leave one day. Quoting this is comparatively easy than to experience it. Though it's not my time to go but I am missing my seniors with whom I never felt like I am a junior.
I didn't spend much time with them because initially many of them didn't use to like me, whatever the reason be. I put my best efforts to grab the same position in their hearts as other juniors do, but ended up in being an alien to some and friend of others, which hurt me a bit but the fate was, I lost to some of them. A miracle happened in the last few days and gradually all the harsh feelings started demolishing ! I spent so much time with them that I didn't do in my past two years stay. Some of them even cried for me while leaving. I didn't want them to cry, but somewhere in a deep corner of my heart I was so relaxed and delighted to see that.
Whatever happened earlier, I don't give a damn to it now because 'all's well that ends well' and in the end you guys loved me so much, pampered me like a li'l child ! Nowadays the wing seems like an endless corridor filled with darkness and sorrow. I walk through it, peep into every room hoping to find you there. My hopes stand nowhere in front of the reality the almighty has done to us.Wish you all the best for your future endeavors. God bless you. I miss you all like hell !!!!!

The Reason

The content is very much clear from the topic.Why did I start blogging? The story begins on 9th May 2k8 in room no. B 331 where one of my best friends cum mentor resides. People who know me must have judged the name by this time ! and for others.....try to know me first :D
We sat just for a smoke and in the mean time started talking about something that we never shared despite of being best friends. I quietly listened to him just like a child sits when his mother narrates a fairy tale. I always respected this guy and started admiring him even more after our conversation came to an end. In life, I don't know what I am gonna do ! He made me realize that this is the right time to decide. I observed that he is so very organized that every time I questioned him or tried to object him, he slapped me with an answer that made me speechless ! I felt like writing about him so that I can admire him even more and so I am writing.
But.....don't dare to think anything fishy...we are just friends :P....and this is the beginning..I dint have anything to write.